Tuesday, November 20, 2001  4:18 pm  <|>
<118> In a day it's different: Just like that a lot changes and for some reason a lot of things seem better all at once.  And you wonder if that's really how things happened or if you just finally snapped out of something that lead you to believe things were bad and now they're not... well now isn't that something to think about on a Tuesday afternoon? 

Even after a long day yesterday, almost no sleep last night, and class all day today up until now, I still somehow exist in not only a good mood, but a hopeful one or something like that, because things seem like they are all going to be alright.  Maybe it's the events of yesterday that guide my mood; maybe it's just that little by little, life sinks in and doesn't seem so bad... but to me it really never was bad, so where does all this random ramble come from? 

I have a feature article that I should be writing right now.  I suppose it's fitting that I write a bit here first since my topic is about personal websites and weblogs.  It should get me in the mood, right?   It's actually coming along pretty well.  I might even link it from this site once it's totally done.  I'm also working on a new layout still for this site.   It's all being done in Flash and me who barely knows enough about it to be doing such a thing, but I've always been that way, right?  I'm also undertaking some major javascripting fun for my core studio final project.  I mentioned before that we have to make a game and that I originally wanted to make it digital, but knew I didn't know enough about Flash or Director to use those and plain html just seemed too bland... so I was going to do something physical, but that task scared me because we have to make a complete professional looking product if we do that option and me with little artistic sense when it comes to detailed physical forms made me want to steer clear.  However, after today's class and a little conversation with my prof, I think I'm much clearer on what I want to do, where I want to go with it, and how I want to go about it.  So that's a little less of a worry now and that's always nice. 

So what about all these other things that I claim to be working out lately?  Well all I really have to say about that is a lot of people and situations change pretty much daily, so you never know what mood may be produced at any time.  I've also just been thinking a lot about these related things and I pretty much always come to the conclusion that I have to chill out OR that I should pay even more attention to these things... yes those are total opposites, but do you expect any less from my mind? 

I'm going home tomorrow to New Jersey.   I am glad to be going home I guess, but I think I've grown too comfortable and too accustomed to my freedom and my friends here in the city of brotherly love.  I know a few are staying in Philly the whole weekend and I plan to be back around Saturday to be with them once again.  I have work to do too and that's done easiest here on my desktop even though I'll have my laptop with me for other online and updating purposes.   I suppose I can use the break from this city life for a couple of days though.   I haven't stayed overnight at home in NJ since I moved here.  It's the longest I've ever gone and I feel like it should be a bigger deal then it is.  I think it's just that a lot has changed at home for me even since the summer, and I'm not sure if I really want to deal with any of it right now.  But I'd better get back to my paper and finish it (as it is due tomorrow).  There will be a little more fun tonight before the brief holiday break - so I must prepare for more confusion too.