Thursday, November 29, 2001  6:14 pm  <|>
<120> Comforting confusion: I should be working right now and for the next two weeks, but you know if I did this working thing non stop I would probably go insane (or at least more than I already am).  I have a lot going on again lately, with work and well, with everything actually.  It's more interesting then bad though.  My problem is that things just kind of work themselves out now, present themselves when I don't exactly expect them to.... I used to control things for the most part, but then again I don't want to control too much.  Instead of planning my life, it can just happen, but I'd like to think I have to play quite a large roll in that somewhere.   Of course I am making no sense, but when you read this again in my book someday perhaps I'll include endnotes that allow you to decifer just what the hell I am saying.  

I just saw the crazinest thing EVER!   I am sitting here, working, minding my own business, when I hear patroitic music.   At first I figure it is just someone playing odd music really loud (which isn't uncommon since my room is only on the second floor) out of their car, but then I hear people yelling too and that is unusally loud even for this street.  So I look at the window because it sounds like it is getting closer and I see a fucking Americian patroitism float.  A full float, you know with all the lights and music and people on top with banners, being pulling by a truck?  It was pretty nuts.  Maybe something left over from that Thanksgiving parade they had last week or something, but it was weird... very weird.  And by the way, my roommate saw it too, and no I did not have anything funny to drink before I saw it!  If I had more time to comprehend it, I would have taken a picture for you, but I didn't so I guess you'll just have to take my word for it...