Friday, January 11, 2002  2:48 am  <|>
<126> Am I really coming together?: Things seem good lately. I can sit and listen to my newest Modest Mouse album and read my most recent issue of Flaunt and realize this. Life seems more connected and more familiar then it has been and I'm wondering where all of these feelings are coming from lately. Shouldn't I be more concerned with much more material worlds? What is wrong with me? Perhaps I'll be snapping out of it in a few weeks time, when I return to a more common way of life for myself and am once again bogged down with the workload of classes. Did I mention, by the way, that I came out of this last semester with a 3.8 GPA? It was a nice surprise, or maybe not so much a surprise, but it was nice none the less. 3 As in my standard 3-hour long classes and then an A- and a B+ in my 6-hour studios. I was happy with that. Especially since a B+ in my video and animation class was really a nice find. I was a little worried about that one during the first half of the semester in which my teacher at that point decided to grade us like junior animators instead of sophomore multimedia students who had never done animation before in their lives. Oh well, it all turned out nicely and I am certainly not complaining about any of it. Now, this semester will be a lovely "challenge" with 4 humanity classes and only 2 addition classes actually related to my major. I was warned somewhat against it, but told I could handle it as I actually did pretty well in high school. It's funny how so many people at my school seem to get scared by the thought of actual academic-like work. Where were they during high school? It was never so bad. I think I landed myself a lot of reading and writing this semester, but so what; it gets my requirements out of the way and gives me more freedom later down the line to pick and choose the electives that I want... which will probably include even more humanity classes... but that is my choice now, isn't it? So yeah, I'm pretty content right now and even though I am not sure of all the reasons why, I do know some and I'm just left hoping that this doesn't end anytime soon. I seem so wide awake to things and regardless of any somewhat recent adjustments, it just seems that things are coming together... that I am coming together - and now that I've gotten some bit of control over it all, I'm not letting it get away from me ever again.