Tuesday, January 22, 2002  4:20 pm  <|>
<127> Picking up where I left off: Did you ever feel like everything was happening to you all at once?  And when all these things are all good, what does this mean exactly?  That's how I feel today though.  It's been a long day that flew by, but with so many things happening in its course that it's hard to keep my head clear right now.  There are just so many things to think about, so many things to get done and of course this feeling may be only natural occurring on the first day back in a new semester, but still.  My day started today at 7:30am (a time in which I haven't been awake for in quite awhile) and surprisingly I wasn't really tired.  That is probably because I forced myself to go to bed around 12:30am, which is incredibility early for me, especially lately.  So I had my 6-hour core studio class today, my only studio this semester, which even with 18 credits, should allow me a little breathing room... at least in theory.  On my lunch break I came online to briefly check my mail and catch up with my work (online job work) and all that ended up taking the entire break, including the extra half an hour my teacher gave us.  So that was good, but it also reminded me just how much I have going on right now and how much I want to accomplish.  Plus after my class today it's got me thinking about everything we'll be doing this semester, how much I want and need to learn, and what I need to be doing in order to make all this happen.  In addition to all of this, this morning the head of our department called me out with my studio teacher and asked if I was still interested in that internship position they asked me to do last semester (but which never got setup).  I know I'm already busy, but I agreed to at least look into it.  I talked with the guy in charge and this job seems incredibly open, so much so that I have no idea how they plan on judging my hours in order to pay me.  It's something I really want to do though, because basically our department has a separate website that has been sitting with nothing more then a test page on it since we got it, which was over a year ago... so they need someone to do some work with it, put up a design for the site, etc... and that person is turning out to be me.  It's kind of a big chance for me to prove myself, so of course that's kind of scary, but it's always a great opportunity that I definitely want to do.   So I need to see the head of my department again, but he is so hard to track down sometimes.  So that is just one more thing to add on to my plate.  And that's not to mention any of the "little" things I need to do for myself, such as finally update my websites or spend time with my friends!  I refuse to give up my life to working all the time.  I will balance it out I know, it's just all overwhelming today because it's the first day back and everything is coming up at once, but even so with all of this, everything looks really promising and even if I do end up being pulled in about a million directions, as long as most of those directions are good then I guess it will all be ok, right? 

Of course so much has happened in the last two weeks leading up to today as well.  I moved back to Philly for good exactly one week ago today.  It was nice just having time with my friends to hang out before everyone had to go back to waking up for classes and doing homework.  It was a very good week.  But now we all go back to doing work and being busy, so we won't see each other as much, we won't have as much time to spend together, but I am positive we will all make the time somehow.  At least for the next week or two (I'm hoping) we won't have too much hard work to take care of, so at least starting up slowly will be helpful.   Since I've only had one class so far, I still have no idea how my workload will be quite yet.  But I'll find out soon enough.  All I know is that my to do list is filling up pretty quickly and there isn't a single check on it yet... so yeah I have my work cut out for me... but my life in general is pretty damn good, so what am I complaining about?  Nothing and now I will stop and see just what I can get done.