Wednesday, June 12, 2002  12:58 am  <|>
<148> Last teen day: Today is my last remaining day as a teenager. The impact of this? Well, I'm not really sure. Turning 20 is an interesting time I suppose. You are no longer a "teen" even though you've long since felt like a teenager anyway and at the same time you are not yet 21 so even though you have also been a legal "adult" for 2 years now you still can't get into any of the good bars or clubs, can't drink legally just yet, and still are no better off than you were a year ago. Except, well you are in that last year. That remaining year that once it passes you have crossed that big 21 mark and then the rest of your life is downhill... just kidding. I believe I have quite a few good years left. What this year will bring for me, well, that is still up in the air. I mean, c'mon, my LIFE is up in the air right now in terms of what is going to happen next, so who knows how this year will be. I hope it will start out with a bunch of little bumps and good news that will lead to normalcy for the rest of it, but only time will tell.

So it begins now, my last day of being 19 years old and I have to admit it was one of my best years ever. It brought me a bunch of good times, firsts, fun, and of course some down times too, but overall I can't remember a more interesting or better year of my life. So it ends not quite how I would have ever chosen or predicted, but such is life and now a new year of my life begins will the potential to beat out this past year and I really hope that it does. In less than 24 hours my birthday comes and as much as I'm not one to put that much into birthdays this time around it kind of does mean something more. It represents this new section of my life that isn't perfect right now, yet can improve and I certainly intend for it too. And so this time next year, when the big 21st birthday rolls around, what will be going on in my life? No one could tell you for sure, especially not me, but I can tell you that I consider myself to be a strong person and if I have anything to say about it I will start off my 21st much differently than any other and it WILL be great.

I'm tired tonight, though I suppose it is kind of late already. I just got home too. I went to dinner with two of my friends and then hung out at my best friend's house for awhile. I still have work I should really get done tonight, which I would have done earlier if my laptop hadn't decided to pretend to crash for a little while, but I'm thinking it's not all going to get done tonight no matter what I do. Oh well, not a huge deal, but I'll just have to make sure I get extra stuff done tomorrow. So for now, I'll finish up and be ready to fully enjoy my last day of being 19 tomorrow, haha like that is something to be excited about! ;)