Sunday, July 7, 2002  12:39 pm  <|>
<151> Dare to dream: Far too many days pass between entries because I am denied access to any way to explain what is going on. Well, at least I was. I spent most of this last week in the hospital unfortunately, as my doctors tried to figure out once and for all why my blood pressure was constantly so high and furthermore why none of the medications I was taking for it seemed to be working. That started last Friday, when I would have normally left dialysis I wasn't allowed to because my blood pressure was up and they couldn't legally let me leave the building like that. So they tried some things and kept me until Monday night, which sucked and I wasn't too happy, especially since my blood pressure was still high and nothing had really improved too much. But so then I was free for a day, on Tuesday, but I felt crappy all day anyway because my blood pressure was still high and I was worn out from the hospital stay. Hospitals always seem to leave you in worse condition than you start out in, don't you think? So then Wednesday I walk into dialysis and from that point on I was not to be leaving until Friday afternoon. This time though, since Wednesday, they were able to get my blood pressure down and keep it down, and I was less resistant to being stuck in the hospital to stay because it was finally down and staying down and just because I had become resolved to it I suppose. So yes this is where I spent my fourth of july, exciting huh? I could see the city skyline from my window and got to watch all the little fireworks explosions happening all over the place, the real ones in the distance, and the illegal ones taking place pretty close to outside my window. Not how I would have wanted to spent the holiday, but we wouldn't have been doing anything at all anyway. My real plan for this last week was made months ago, to go visit my friend Jon up in NY for his birthday and stay most of the week. Of course, when I got sick the chances of this got slimmer and then by last weekend I knew it wasn't happening of course. That's what I get for making any plan ahead of time. I want to get up there to see him before the summer is over though.

So this week hasn't exactly been exciting or even particularly pleasant, but a new week has begun today and I'm starting it out right. I came into Philly last night, spent a little time with my friends, and then today I've been working since I woke up basically. I am just trying to get things back to normal once again. It's not quite there yet, but you know me, I'm always working on it.