Wednesday, September 19, 2002  7:22 pm  <|>
<159> Getting things in order: Well, it's been longer than I thought, but I suppose I have good reasons. For one, the semester started on September 5th, so we're a couple weeks into it now and there is definitely plenty of work to keep me busy. I'm all ready for a vacation and yes I know I was almost looking forward to having things back to a "normal" place but believe me if you were around here you'd see things were far from normal. A lot of things have been happening lately, ever since everyone (meaning my friends) got back and we all started school again. I guess things were brewing over the summer a bit too, but I would have never seen things coming the way they have in the last week or so. Things are changing constantly and it seems like everywhere I've turned lately when it comes to change the changes don't just come, but they are big when they do which leaves a lot of lasting effects on me and everyone around me. This time I will say, though I am extremely involved in these changes I am talking about (only partly by choice) at least they really aren't centered around me like dramas usually tend to be. Believe me, I have my own dramas to deal with, but dealing with everybody else's seems to keep me busy enough. I don't know what's going on half the time, everybody has been crazy since we've been back, a lot of people seem different or just frustrated with life or something. I can't say this feeling totally escapes me either. Everyone has a breaking point. But I'm blind to how the future is going to turn out, I usually have been, but now I rarely dare to even predict anymore. I'll say this much though, I'm ready to move on and start seeing things be good again... at least that's what I'm holding out for (while I can).

So like I said, the semester started a few weeks ago and it's been a little busy, though not completely overwhelming I suppose. My studio is going pretty well, it's the first time we really have a ton of freedom which I thought would be more scary than it is. In reality, I seem to be dealing with the freedom just fine for now because no one else knows what they're doing either really, you know? I seem to want to do more than I have to, but I guess I've always tended to take on more load then I should, but as long as it gets done it should pay off (I hope). I have just finalized my idea fully for my first project so I'm going to begin to really do a lot of work for that this week I think. Otherwise, most of my work has been reading. I have so much reading to do this semester, but in part I brought it on myself. I'm talking a class called Modern Culture, which has us reading two books at once right now, plus I'm talking a class on Shakespeare so of course there is a bunch of reading for that. Not to mention the readings to go along with the classes related to my major, whom have been dishing out the packets of reading too already. It's ok though, I don't mind reading too much, just takes time to do it which no one around here seems to ever have enough of. To add to the excitement around here I think I am getting sick, with a cold or something, my throat's been hurting a little, I've had a cough, and today I just keep sneezing and my nose jumps between stuffy and runny. Sounds lovely, doesn't it? I hope it goes away soon, I really hate feeling sick, especially when I have work to do, and even more so when the weekend finally comes (which starts now for me sort of except for dialysis in the morning tomorrow). Actually tomorrow I have a couple appointments at home, so I figure I will be spending a large part of the day in NJ anyway, so if I wanted to get work done that is not happening tomorrow most likely. Not until later on anyway. Then Saturday promises to be an interesting, if not fun, day. We'll see how it goes.