Monday, March 10, 2003  1:28 am  <|>
<173> Beautiful break: Ah yes, spring break, that week long period that graces us with its presence once a year. Last year my break was filled with a lot of torment for lack of a better word. This year, I predict it to be filled with a lot of good things, even though I'm not doing anything again. Last year all my closest friends (just about) went to Canada for a ski trip. All and all, that sucked for me for multiple reasons. But this year, well right now it feels like they're all leaving me again but the nice thing is they really aren't. Not like last year anyway. Let's see. My roommates: Adam is home and working this week. Emily is home too for now, coming back Thursday and we're going to try to catch the Mason Jennings concert. Jamie is sticking around for break, but I haven't seen him at all really since break started because he went home too, to NJ, to be with his girlfriend and such. So I've had the house to myself and it's nice. It can get lonely but it's not like I've been here the whole time for one and two it's only a few days so I really don't mind the sole time at all. Besides I have Hobbes to keep me company. As for the rest of my friends. Well Concetta went home to Maryland and Jon went with her. I would have gone too, was planning on it until a few days ago, but I have been so tired and out of it this passed week I thought it better for me to chill out this weekend rather than running all around DC like we had planned. We were going to see this really cool multimedia exhibit (and the pandas at the zoo!) but I've learned to miss out on things because of my health. I'm ok though, it was just a decision I needed to make this time around. There will be other times.

My weekend has not come and gone without some form of being productive however. Friday night I got a lot of job work done which made me feel pretty good. I passed up some parties to stay in and work but I was tired anyway and really didn't end up missing much. Then Saturday Concetta and I had our glassblowing slot one slot early since her dad was coming to pick up her and Jon during our normal slot time. And we were actually successful, more so then we have been in the last few times we went. I think this may have something to do with the fact that neither of us really went out the night before and actually I liked the earlier slot time better too for some reason. 11am on a Saturday?? Well, I probably would learn to miss my 2pm slot, but it was nice for this time at least. I made 3 things: a dish/cup type thing, another cup type thing, and an ameba ash tray. Perhaps pictures will hit the site eventually when I actually want to "show off" my glass work. I met up with Pam later on after that for tea @ last drop. We had a good talk as always, catching each other up on what happened since we last talked (a week ago). We're good friends but don't see each other that often outside of our last drop sessions and parties. We're all just so busy around here sometimes. I can think of a couple other people who I really need to plan a hang out session with soon too. Well, it is break, so maybe this will be possible :) Saturday night was like my previous Saturday night, but I can tell you I wouldn't mind this at all if it were to continue as it has. I hung out at Neil's and met another one of his friends who it turned out I already sort of knew in a way. I like small gatherings of people, though I know you couldn't tell it judging by the sheer immensiveness of any party we try to throw at our place. I guess we do have a lot of "close" friends but on top of that you get plenty of people who just come. They say they're the best parties they ever go to, so I can't really complain I guess, but sometimes a small party of people (often times) is just nicer... at least in my opinion. Anyway, I hope they continue. Last Friday night I threw my first party by myself. It actually had a theme too. Everyone had to dress up, even if it wasn't the fanciest thing ever - I mean most people don't have dress up clothes because really there is no need for them around here at this school - but that was the point of the party. Sometimes you just need to create an excuse to dress up or do something a little different. I was actually impressed that most people followed the rules and while I can't say the party went without interesting / somewhat ground breaking events for some (what party have we ever thrown here that hasn't had some kind of implications like this?) it went really well overall and I had a good time. It did hold a few surprises, but like I said, I've gotten used to this by this point. I'm learning to deal with them pretty well now too.

So much has happened in the course of the last month. I'm at such a different place than I was then and in a much better place than I expected to be. Friendships have been mended (somewhat) and new relationships have grown. Not everything has been perfect, but the drama seems to have let me be for the most part and focused on other people. It's my job to help other people with their drama, so I've been right in place. Now I sit here tonight, actually feeling productive though I'm not sure I've gotten that much done. Said goodbye to Danne and Sara earlier as they left for Paris tonight (yes you may hate them right along with me if you like, actually I encourage it ;) ) and then I came home and have mostly been sitting here on my computer all night. I know that's a shocker. But it's put me in one of those moods which tends to lead to things happening... like me actually writing in here, yeah I know it's been awhile. But you're getting a nice long post so don't try to complain. I guess I've had a lot to say, just no time to say, err, type it. I still need to update a lot of other stuff on this site. My portfolio is lacking for want of updates, but I will have to do it soon regardless of time because we have to have it completed for school. So expect to start seeing more added here and other changes. Especially this week hopefully, as there is no better time to find time than spring break, right?