Tuesday, March 18, 2003  1:40 am  <|>
<176> A day to believe in: I've tried to write this post three times now, but each time something comes up and I don't even get a chance to start it. Tonight I am so tired and out of it - just had a long day and Mondays are usually tiresome for me anyhow with dialysis, but I'm still going just a little longer to get out some of my thoughts. This should be interesting too, considering I'm in such a rambling state yet I'm almost too tired to type. Imagine that! Maybe I should close my eyes...

Last week for me kind of sucked. Yeah, it was my spring break, so I didn't have to go to classes or anything, that was nice... but overall I didn't really do anything and although I might have accomplished a little in terms of job related work and personal work, I still feel like I could have used my time a little better. I did manage, however, to end my spring break on a good note, with a nice weekend that made its attempts to redeem the week. There are still things on my mind though, but I won't get into that now... And Sunday, wow it was so incredibly nice out. When I went outside for the first time of the day in just a t-shirt and the weather was perfect I couldn't help but be in a good mood. I did a little shopping with Concetta and then Jon joined us for some food. Then Concetta and I met up with Juan to hack in the park for a little while (which was great since I haven't been hacking in forever and really haven't gone to the park too recently either - I guess that makes sense because of winter, but it still felt a little weird to be back). It wasn't the best session, we're all out of practice, but it went ok and we ended it when we started noticing all these people with candles near the entrance to the park. So we grabbed our stuff and headed in that direction to find out what was going on. A peace vigil was being held (part of one that was happening all around the world) so we were given white candles in cups, pins, signs, and pamphlets and we joined the crowd. It was silent (with general quiet talking of course) as we walked once around the outside of the park to see all the people and I took a few photos since I had decided to carry my camera around that day, but then we grabbed a spot by the entrance until it was over. It had all the news people there covering it. My mom saw it on TV (the event not me) but asked me if I was there and I told her about it. She figured I would have already heard about something like that, but for some reason I hadn't. It was more of an older crowd than a bunch of students, but regardless, there were a fair amount of people there overall.

So (and this will most likely be my last thought for the night as I can hardly type because I'm so tired and for the record I closed my eyes so I would stop messing up so often - and for the record it really does work out better if I type with my eyes closed rather than open when I'm in this state) this war is impending... and I think most people recognize that it's all beyond their control right now, at least most of it is... I hate to sound like I don't think a small group can make a difference, because I still believe they can, but when you are facing up against the gov't it's just not a fair match even before the game begins. I definitely have more to say on this issue, but for now I think it is best for me to say goodnight and hope for a better tomorrow.